Future

I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.

Dear love,Thanks because you're coming in my life while I tengah down. Seriusly,I tak expect pun perkara ni boleh terjadi. I never expect you come in my life. and the beggining Alhamdullilah :) you buat I bahagia. Serius,babe. I sangat happy. happy dengan you sekarang. you always care pasal I. Sometimes you did something wrong. Sometimes you buat I sakit hati. But,serius babe, even marah mana pun I kat you. sayang tu tak pernah hilang dalam hati I. Almost one month la kan,yeah kan I cakap ini adalah permulaan. I harap sangat kat you,you boleh bahagiakan mcm you buat sekarang sampai bila-bila. I harap sangat you :( . I'm exhausted. serius I penat dengan ni. I serik act. I pun tatau macam mana I boleh terima you. you pun selalu tanya kan dear? but i'm damn sorry. I tak boleh nak jawab pertanyaan you. hati tetiba ada untuk you. Miracle do happen. betullah apa orang benci boleh bertukar jadi sayang kan ? :) 

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.
Honestly abiy,I really hope you'll be my last. hmm not sure la kan :') jodoh siapa tahu :'). InshaAllah you'll be my future husband ,future daddy,future grandpa. Omg I can't believe it. Jauhnya I imagine kan. Untuk you je Abiy. ❤

9 Months without nothing.

Just because my eyes do not show tears,
doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry n i don't get hurt.

Just because I come out strong, doesn't mean
there is nothing wrong.

Often I choose to pretend that I'm happy.

So I don't have to explain myself to people
who'll never understand.

Smiling has always been easier than
explaining y I'm sad...!

 am a good enough person to forgive you,
but not stupid enough to trust you again.

Today is ? 26/1. guess what? Our ANNIVERSARY! Are you fucking remember that? :( 

seriusly? seriusly? 9 months without nothing?!! where are ya gone? where? Serius wak,sumpah saya kecewa dengan awak. Lupa ke? Dari tadi k saya tunggu awak? where are ya fucking gone? Tak ingat harini? apani? like such a couple ke gini? Saya penat tau harini. Terlalu penat. tidur tak cukup langsung. Saya tunggu awak online dari petang. Saya sanggup online even though saya buzy,penat. Awak pun faham kan,saya hidup tanpa phone sekarang. Susah ke nak on? To be honest! Saya penat dengan awak. Penat nak sayang awak lagi. Penat nak rindu awak lagi. penat nak tunggu awak lagi.. Awak saya bukan tunggul, saya bukan patung, saya ada hati,. Serius penat. Sia sia relay ni sebenarnya, dahlah takda penamat.. Awak langsung tak rindu saya? ye saya faham. kalau sayang awak dah kurang. just letting me go dude.. Jangan sesekali seksa hati saya macam ni. Tiqah cakap" Lelaki ni saja je nak couple dengan perempuan tu sebab dia nak uji perempuan tu ataupun hilangkan bosan dia" k ,tadi dia cakap macam tu. terus saya teringat awak. Adakah awak buat saya sebagai bahan ujikaji awak? bila awak dah berjaya. awak abaikan macam tu je? ataupun awak bosan? awak buat saya seperti permainan . Saya sedih awak tak nampak. Saya try move on dengan awak. TU SUSAH  awak . Saya dah sayang awak. saya dah serah hati saya kat awak. Awak,saya mohon kalau awak dah muak tuk jaga hati saya lagi. Please. Fucking Please! Pulangkanlah balik.. Sakit sangat bila awak macam ni. Jika ada orang baru yang dah happykan awak,mohon jaga dia, jangan buat dia sakit. Dia perempuan,saya perempuan. HATI kami hati TISU! Lembut. faham wahai kaum adam? Awak dah terlalu baik untuk saya,mungkin saya tak layak untuk awak. Mungkin ada hikmah relay kita huru hara macam ni. Mungkin awak nak jaga hati dia kan? sokay, kalau ianya betul pergilah kat dia, Jangan risau saya okay. Saya kuat. Saya ada Allah. Saya ada mama,ayah. Saya ada kakak,abang,adik adik. saya ada paksu gemuk saya :* saya ada sepupu kesayangan saya, saya ada kawan kawan saya,. dorang ada dibelakang untuk sokong saya,untuk sambut saya bila saya terjatuh. I remember years ago,someone told I should take. Caution when it comes to love. I did I did. I know I were strong,.

Happy Anniversary . 26 hb . Lots of hurts !

Something Great

The small acts you perform for making me happy shows just how much you love me and it is the feeling of being loved so madly that will keep me spirited even in tough times. Our love will stand the test of time.Ever since the day you came in my life, I know that you are the one I'll truly love till the end.

Iloveyou without no reason. I don't know why Iloveyou,I don't know when I starting fall in love. I just know,you're everything to me..:'( I just know you're only mine. ! You're my superhero,you're my future. you're daddy for our children. :')

From the beginning I know you,until now ILoveYou! 

26/4/2014 11:26 pm.. I officialy be your girlfriend ;) .. Heyya! Syaf :* This entry khas untuk you ;) .. siapa awak dihati saya? awak ibaratkan raja dihati saya. saya sayang awak sangat sangat. Until now saya mengaku,perasaan sayang ,rindu tak pernah hilang dari hati. Yes,even tho awak banyak terlukakan hati saya. Jujur saya tak pernah nak benci awak.. Memanglah saya pernah cakap saya benci awak. Tapi,jujur tak ada niat pun,.. Awak nak tahu,masa awak tak on. Hari hari saya tunggu awak. Hari hari saya rindu awak. Hari hari saya bukak text awak. Saya baca text awak. Saya rindu sangat kat awak. Rindu sesangat. Awak pernah kata,kalau rindu awak peluk bebear. Tiap tiap hari saya peluk bebear,saya cium bebear . kadang kadang saya cakap kat bebear yang saya rindu awak,then saya peluk dia erat erat sampailah saya tertidur. Ya Allah rindunya kat sayang, haritu mama basuh bebear,mama kata bebear tu dah lama tak mandi. Tapi saya tak bagi. Then haritu,saya balik sekolah saya tengok bebear takde kat atas katil. Saya nak nangis sebab bebear hilang. Tanya mama dia basuh. :'( awak tahu,malam tu saya tidur keseorangan. walaupun ada banyak lagi teddy bear saya tapi bebear tetap jadi peneman saya. bila dia tiada. saya sunyi. saya mula ingat awak.. hummm,tapi.. bila awak on :'( awak takpernah nak ucap rindu kat saya :'( saya tunggu ucapan tu.. saat tu saya kecil hati dengan awak. saya rasa sia sia apa yang saya buat... terlalu sia sia . saya down dengan awak. Hari hari saya nangis.. bila pergi sekolah,saya happy. bila sampai rumah saya terus ingat awak.. saya tak benci awak, saya kecewa dengan awak,. terlalu kecewa.. bila kakak saya cakap " come on,move on jela dik." I'm just *angguk* *senyum :') tapi dalam hati saya still saya awak. eh 10/4 ni birthday awak kan sayang. alololo dah tua syaf saya kan? 16 hari selepas tu,genap setahun. InshaAllah :'). Sayang awak sampai 7 eleven tutup ! Sayang Syafiq . 26/4-until now,inshAllah until forever . 

You're my love ,you're my life. You're everything I need. I want you here with me like how pictured it so I don't have to keep imagining. come on jump out at me,come on bring everything. Its to much to ask for something great?